Mak

This City Feels Empty When You're Gone I know you don’t give a fuck but there’s so much distance between us two that it feels like nothing that I do will ever change the way you look at me! I feel so alone that sometimes I wish I could call you up and hear your voice on the other end, but instead it’s just dial tone with no way through! I drive down memory lane thinking back on all the good times that we had, only to stop myself from thinking bout all the wrongs that caused us to feel so empty towards each other! I tried my best to remind myself of how things should’ve been, but in the end, you just proved your point on why we will never work even though you’re the only one who’s ever on my mind, and as much as I wanna ask for forgiveness from you it’ll never happen! I’m just hoping that you’ll realize how much I need you next to me! But for now, I’ll continue to remind you of how much you mean to me, only to constantly get shut out because you can’t face the fact that I'm into...

Infatuated By Someone Who's No Good for Me I know this is going to hurt me in the long run, but I'm already in the deep end with you, so let me just go ahead and drown in the thoughts of us not ever being together, and I can move on from these feelings that I have for you. Things always seem to be so easy when you're around, but then you leave and make me feel like it was my fault, but turns out it was never anything to begin with, other than my imagination. It's hard for me to describe the way I feel towards you when you're long gone somewhere else, being happy. I can see it in your face that you wish things could be different but then we make a move to get past it only to find out it's not really meant for us so we go back to keeping our distance only to miss each other in the process and just repeat the cycle over and over til one of us can't keep it together. I see you every now and then, only to freeze as if time stood still and process the image of you...

Thinking Bout All the Things We Used to Do I understand the person you ended up being with was far gone from saving, but knowing things ended up how they did, I wouldn’t change it for the world! You and I had a lot of great memories, but they’ve somehow managed to fade into the void, and now, when I look at you, there’s nothing there to feel other than the pain that I caused! I knew my doings back then weren’t the best, but you stuck around thinking it was for the best when it wasn’t! I wish things could have worked out between you and me, but looking back, that would have meant being true to myself, and at the time, I was lost as to what was happening around me! I knew I loved you with all my heart, but something always felt off, no matter how much I tried to express what I was feeling and going through! I cried myself to sleep, wishing it would all just stop! But instead, I wake up with this pain of being the bad guy in the end, and I just couldn’t let it go! I needed you to be there...

It Goes Like This I've come to terms with my life always being on the go, and I just have to accept it for the sake of my own well-being. I keep myself pretty content and out the way of others and just focus on the things that matter and as of recently I went ahead and removed someone who was holding me back from me living my life to the fullest and so far everything been so much clearer to me now that they're gone and the rest of the people that were just like them. It's like a block of weight has been removed from my shoulders, and I can finally be free to move as I please. Being something I wasn't for someone else's approval for the past 6 years really took a toll on me, and I'm finally realizing that my actions were basically because of them, and now that they're gone I can finally see why everyone wants to be around me and constantly asking to hang out. I guess I really am a people person but never really saw that for myself because I had someone breath...

I'm Better Off Not Knowing You 6 years of the back and forth trying to get to know one another, and yet we never even got past the first-name basis. You come my way to leave me confused about what I’m doing with my life, just to watch from a distance and make it seem like I was the problem all along. I did what I could to keep myself from getting upset but you had me so fucked up I just kept my cool and avoided your presence whenever I went out with my friends! I ended up making myself numb to the feelings around me, knowing it wouldn’t end well if I reacted to all the things I felt! I avoided the social interactions until I was at ease from the thought of seeing you! I told myself I could try being your friend just to keep myself from hating you, but hating you is all I wanted to do at the time because it made my life a lot easier! I wanted you to feel as much pain as possible, even if it meant going after the ones closest to you and exposing your long life secrets to them! I need...

I'm Sorry for What I Just Did I'm not sure why I waited so long to remove you from my life, but I'm glad it finally happened. I can finally put all the bullshit and toxic shit behind me now. I understand you might go out of your way and cause damage to my name or whatever, and honestly, I don't care. I'm long gone and removed from your doings, and it doesn't even phase me. I'm better off with this new girl who doesn't make me feel like I need to be someone else just to be happy. I'm fine on my own, but also fine with just having her next to me without feeling like I'm wasting her time. It's not like I wanted to have you hate me or feel some type of way, I just needed you to move on from me and delete every trace/memory and thought you had/have of me. It's not healthy for either of us to keep living in the past, thinking things could ever be the same between us two. I'm on the verge of moving and being long gone from N.C, and well, you...