Mak

Thinking Bout All the Things We Used to Do I understand the person you ended up being with was far gone from saving, but knowing things ended up how they did, I wouldn’t change it for the world! You and I had a lot of great memories, but they’ve somehow managed to fade into the void, and now, when I look at you, there’s nothing there to feel other than the pain that I caused! I knew my doings back then weren’t the best, but you stuck around thinking it was for the best when it wasn’t! I wish things could have worked out between you and me, but looking back, that would have meant being true to myself, and at the time, I was lost as to what was happening around me! I knew I loved you with all my heart, but something always felt off, no matter how much I tried to express what I was feeling and going through! I cried myself to sleep, wishing it would all just stop! But instead, I wake up with this pain of being the bad guy in the end, and I just couldn’t let it go! I needed you to be there...

It Goes Like This I've come to terms with my life always being on the go, and I just have to accept it for the sake of my own well-being. I keep myself pretty content and out the way of others and just focus on the things that matter and as of recently I went ahead and removed someone who was holding me back from me living my life to the fullest and so far everything been so much clearer to me now that they're gone and the rest of the people that were just like them. It's like a block of weight has been removed from my shoulders, and I can finally be free to move as I please. Being something I wasn't for someone else's approval for the past 6 years really took a toll on me, and I'm finally realizing that my actions were basically because of them, and now that they're gone I can finally see why everyone wants to be around me and constantly asking to hang out. I guess I really am a people person but never really saw that for myself because I had someone breath...

I'm Better Off Not Knowing You 6 years of the back and forth trying to get to know one another, and yet we never even got past the first-name basis. You come my way to leave me confused about what I’m doing with my life, just to watch from a distance and make it seem like I was the problem all along. I did what I could to keep myself from getting upset but you had me so fucked up I just kept my cool and avoided your presence whenever I went out with my friends! I ended up making myself numb to the feelings around me, knowing it wouldn’t end well if I reacted to all the things I felt! I avoided the social interactions until I was at ease from the thought of seeing you! I told myself I could try being your friend just to keep myself from hating you, but hating you is all I wanted to do at the time because it made my life a lot easier! I wanted you to feel as much pain as possible, even if it meant going after the ones closest to you and exposing your long life secrets to them! I need...

I'm Sorry for What I Just Did I'm not sure why I waited so long to remove you from my life, but I'm glad it finally happened. I can finally put all the bullshit and toxic shit behind me now. I understand you might go out of your way and cause damage to my name or whatever, and honestly, I don't care. I'm long gone and removed from your doings, and it doesn't even phase me. I'm better off with this new girl who doesn't make me feel like I need to be someone else just to be happy. I'm fine on my own, but also fine with just having her next to me without feeling like I'm wasting her time. It's not like I wanted to have you hate me or feel some type of way, I just needed you to move on from me and delete every trace/memory and thought you had/have of me. It's not healthy for either of us to keep living in the past, thinking things could ever be the same between us two. I'm on the verge of moving and being long gone from N.C, and well, you...