Blog Post 400

I'm Better Off Not Knowing You

6 years of the back and forth trying to get to know one another, and yet we never even got past the first-name basis. You come my way to leave me confused about what I’m doing with my life, just to watch from a distance and make it seem like I was the problem all along. I did what I could to keep myself from getting upset but you had me so fucked up I just kept my cool and avoided your presence whenever I went out with my friends!

I ended up making myself numb to the feelings around me, knowing it wouldn’t end well if I reacted to all the things I felt! I avoided the social interactions until I was at ease from the thought of seeing you! I told myself I could try being your friend just to keep myself from hating you, but hating you is all I wanted to do at the time because it made my life a lot easier! I wanted you to feel as much pain as possible, even if it meant going after the ones closest to you and exposing your long life secrets to them! I needed you to understand my doings are way more evil than you think! I wanted you to see the real me for what you did, and for that to have happened, I had to revert to my old ways and get the demons back out!

I could go on about all the shit I did behind the scenes and your back but honestly the damage is already done so there’s no point in doing that! Maybe I’ll throw a few hints your way as to why certain things keep happening to you, but honestly, that’d be way too easy for me! So instead, I’ll just watch from afar and let you figure it out like how you did with me when you walked into my life, making me think my whole world was a lie! 

So I’ll continue to keep my distance from you and your so called doings knowing you’re desperate for my attention but we shall see if you’re really that damn desperate for me or if you’ve finally find another person to go ruin because knowing all the things I did behind the scenes it’s honestly quite a shame I didn’t do it sooner! But anyways let me find out you’re still stuck on me and asking about my whereabouts and it’s a fucking wrap for you! Screenshots out in the open, and the rest of the receipts I’ve collected over the past 6 years! Your life shall be really interesting after I send it out to everyone you have added!