Blog Post 399

I'm Sorry for What I Just Did

I'm not sure why I waited so long to remove you from my life, but I'm glad it finally happened. I can finally put all the bullshit and toxic shit behind me now. I understand you might go out of your way and cause damage to my name or whatever, and honestly, I don't care. I'm long gone and removed from your doings, and it doesn't even phase me. I'm better off with this new girl who doesn't make me feel like I need to be someone else just to be happy. I'm fine on my own, but also fine with just having her next to me without feeling like I'm wasting her time. It's not like I wanted to have you hate me or feel some type of way, I just needed you to move on from me and delete every trace/memory and thought you had/have of me. It's not healthy for either of us to keep living in the past, thinking things could ever be the same between us two. I'm on the verge of moving and being long gone from N.C, and well, you're better off being without me.

I figured I'd go ahead and try my best to make shit as simple as possible for you by just being honest and direct with you. But somehow you took it the wrong way, and I'm not sure why you went that route, but maybe rethink your actions. Cause honestly, I was just asking you if you could stop trying to hook up with me since I know and you know I'm not really your type. That was all I was trying to establish/get at. But I guess you thought I was being hostile towards you when that's the last thing I need to do when it comes to you. I just needed you to understand that I don't think you're a good fit for my life and my doings anymore. I wasn't trying to bash you or the things you were doing/saying. I just wanted to simply be done with your presence and existence and go to bed.

I'm really not trying to play, he said, she said, games with you. I wanted to move on from you and your doings so I could focus on what I have right now and not feel bothered by your shit. You thinking I'll be in the same room as you knowing damn well I'm not even your type is crazy and you thinking I'm still the same guy from 2019 is fucking sickening because I promise that version is long gone. I don't know, something about you always felt off, and I wanted to know what it was so bad, but I could never figure it out until recently. I finally figured it out, and hopefully, you get that lil issue that you've been having since your birth figured out. 

You've been acting this way but feel completely a different way because you were a lil bitch to be the real you and got picked on because of it and honestly I don't blame my friend for going after you. You blamed it on this and that when you should've just put the blame on yourself and acted accordingly but I guess you were to busy on what other people thought you never really developed that frontal lobe of yours completely to realize your whole life was a lie and now that we're back to not knowing or bother with one another I hope all goes well for you and welp for the "beef" you think we're going to have it's not going to exist and if it does it'll be a one side beef between you and yourself because I'm not going out of my way to make amends with you ever again. Just do you and leave me out of it!