Mak Lee

Accidentally Found My Way Back to You I know talking about you and the past is going to make me numb for the next few days, but honestly, I can't deny the fact that you've been on my mind, and I want to reach out to you to see how you've been and hope everything's been going well for you. But for some reason, I haven't had the balls to do it due to the fact that I know if I reach out, the flashbacks of the things that happened and said will start running in the back of my head, causing me to lose focus on everything I know. I just wish there was a better way of letting you know how much I've missed you these past few years, knowing all I do is dream of you and keep thinking about how things could be different if I didn't have to lie to myself about the things I felt towards you. I wish I could love you one more time, but the love I had for you ran its course, and there's no going back. I can replay the memories of us like a movie, but that's it. I wi...

I Don't Wanna Talk to You You don't even care about me or the things I do and say, so why the fuck do you bother playing nice and acting as if you care when we both know you're just seeing if I still want you back or not. You keep playing your fuck ass mind games every now and then with me to see if I'll cave in, and honestly, it's getting to the point where I'm wishing the worst for you. I was fine with just the small talk and letting the conversation die down after 2 minutes, just to never hear back from you, but then you went and made it seem like I was in the wrong for literally just responding to your text. Like, what the fuck did I do wrong that you had to go out of your way and shit on me for answering your question? It's like you want to cause a scene and make it all about you when in reality, I'm doing just fine without you.  I keep telling you time after time that there's nothing between you and I, and I wish you could just see me as a ghos...

Found an Angel Just to Give Her Hell I can't believe I gotta go out of my way and make this public when everything we knew and had was private and behind closed doors. I guess the thought of you being the one thing that's good for me has taken its toll, and I'm not sure how to feel or think about it. I do my best to let it be for what it is and let you do whatever it is you do, but when you're next to me, I can feel the tension rising like there's nothing better going on between the two of us. You claimed I was the only one to show you a side of me nobody's ever seen, and I'm not sure how to feel about it all, honestly. Like, did I lose myself when I looked at you, or was it just the shot of whisky talking when you came walking by, knowing I didn't need much but a quick reply? It happened all so quick that we started making out as if we'd done it all before, knowing we'd never met til that night. I wish I could go back to that night and figure ou...

180 On The Dash Had my fair share and time on the road, swimming, and squeezing through traffic to understand that most people really are just a waste of space and time. I'm not saying that what I was doing was right or wrong; I'm just saying that I was watching videos on swimming and squeezing through traffic, and it made me realize it really is just a skill and a mindset that you have to work up to. It's not something you just wake up doing, at least not for me. Yeah I was always good at cutting up in traffic but swimming and squeezing is a game all on it own and I've talked about me doing it the first time and how it felt but now it's just an automatic thing for me and I hate to say it but I no longer have to think about it just comes to me as if it's nothing.  I know that me doing it probably makes people hate me for how I drive, but honestly, if you do it the right way, then what more can they do other than just watch? It's honestly just a sight to see ...

It's Just Her Since it's clear to me that you still held on to the thought of me, even though I went my separate ways from you, I was wrong about you. I don't know why I thought you were just there for show and to kill some time, but I'm sorry. I thought you said you couldn't do the long-term thing, so I made it a temporary arrangement, thinking nothing of it. However, I guess being with me changed your mind, and I'm sorry for not sticking around to see that. I was just focused on my work and craft, that being next to you started to feel more like a job than a pleasure in my head. But it's my fault for not asking you what your thoughts were and how you felt about it all at the time. I guess I took it too literally when you said you just wanted something temporary and no strings attached at the time. I called you not too long ago to see how things were, and you started going off about how dare I do this and that when I thought everything was cool between us t...