Blog Post 435

I Don't Wanna Talk to You

You don't even care about me or the things I do and say, so why the fuck do you bother playing nice and acting as if you care when we both know you're just seeing if I still want you back or not. You keep playing your fuck ass mind games every now and then with me to see if I'll cave in, and honestly, it's getting to the point where I'm wishing the worst for you. I was fine with just the small talk and letting the conversation die down after 2 minutes, just to never hear back from you, but then you went and made it seem like I was in the wrong for literally just responding to your text. Like, what the fuck did I do wrong that you had to go out of your way and shit on me for answering your question? It's like you want to cause a scene and make it all about you when in reality, I'm doing just fine without you. 

I keep telling you time after time that there's nothing between you and I, and I wish you could just see me as a ghost so you'd get the fuck on from me. You're like in my business now, which makes you question my every move when I'm simply just living my life. You have no life of your own, so you go out and look for others to blame for the shitty life you created for yourself, making them think they owe you something when those people are completely innocent and don't owe you shit. You wanna go out and play victim so everyone feels some sort of way towards you, but when you do that shit to me, it just makes me wonder why your existence is even relevant. You're like a walking disease, and you need to just be killed off. 

You make it your life goal to fuck with someone like me only to see that I'm 10x worse than you when you reach out thinking I'll fall into your pathetic ass sob story but how and why should I fall for your pathetic ass stories when you were the one who hurt me first and made me out to be the bad guy from the jump when in reality all I asked for was an explanation for your doings but all I got was hatred and abuse and for what so you can laugh at the thought of me hurting? You were never an enemy of mine; you were someone I just ended up hanging out with because I thought you were different from the rest, and we could have found some common interest, but instead, you ended up doing the most only to get nothing back.

You wanted to break me down, only to realize you were never going to see the same version of me ever again. You thought you could have me as someone who would only see the good in you, but instead you showed me who you really are, and that's why I don't fucks with you like you wanted me to. You were never the right cup of tea for me. You were toxic and unbearable to look at, even in the dark when the lights went off. It's really hard for me to even be in the same room as you because the vibes you bring are so off-putting that it makes me feel as if the walls are closing in on me. You're bad for my health and will always be toxic and abusive in my head. I just wish there was a way for you to forget about me and have me live a life where you don't ask about me. I would just love it if you'd stop reaching out, asking bout me when we both know I'm always going to be better off alone because the trauma that you caused will never make me fully understand why I need to be with someone else to make myself happy in life.