Mak Lee

Can't Stop Thinking About You This post about to be obvious as hell as to who I'm talking about and I honestly don't even care anymore because I'm tired of trying to hide my feelings for someone like her. It's crazy how I still remember meeting you back in the 8th grade in the hallway and thinking you were the one knowing things aren't how they used to be. It's crazy to think about how I bitched out on talking to you at the mall knowing I wanted to make sure you were doing well even though I knew you'd probably wouldn't respond and just tell me to leave. So maybe that's why I walked out and just forgot about ever seeing you.  I just know that my life back then was not how I wanted it to be and I wasn't who I wanted to be. So I took a lot of steps back just to sit and watch everyone do their thing while I got my shit together and even then I had troubles doing that. But I knew I'd figure it out sooner or later and it took me about...

Running Feels like I lost myself in all of this. It's like I'm running to get to someone who I will never catch up to but can see in the distance. It doesn't make any sense why I can see you but I can never reach you. You're the one I want but can't seem to get to and I keep asking myself why that is and I just get blank responses. I feel like it's deja vu and I'm getting sick and tired of being on repeat and not being able to get anywhere. I just want to catch up to you and just talk but you keep running and I can't seem to catch a break with you. It's got me drained but I can't stop now when you're in my sight of vision. I just wish we had a place to go to but instead it's like we're lost and just going in circles like a prison play yard. You keep running from your past thinking things will get better but in reality, things just keep getting worse because you're not acknowledging those problems and it's just a never...

I Don't Think I'm Ready I know we have our ups and downs, but the shit I said was wrong, and I told you I fucked up, but you seemed to not give a fuck and just took it as if it was a normal thing when I know for a fact it's not a normal thing to say. So help me understand why the shit I said didn't seem to faze you. I reached out several times trying to get your answer, but you just kept ignoring my text and continued to talk about something else, even though you're only 4 hours away. So it's not like I can't come and see you in person and talk about it. It's just that I wish you were more open about talking about it because it's got me questioning us and thinking that it's over between us two when I know that's not what you want. So please help me understand what it is you need from me because I'm down to do it. You probably think that I'm just talking to you to pass the time by but that's not the case. I really do like you,...

Where Do I Belong This may sound like a suicide note but it's really not. It's just me thinking about everything that's happened to me this past month. It's weird that I still think about people that I haven't talked to in years and want to make contact with them but I'm holding back on doing it because I'm afraid of my actions from my past are going to be brought back up even though that's not me anymore. So I just ignore them and a move on without really paying attention to them even though I want to. I just feel like it's easier that way even though it's killing me inside. I guess I'm just not the type to reconnect or put myself back into other's lives knowing they might want me in there life. I hate that awkward moment of not knowing if they really care about me and want me back or if they want me back just to break me down for revenge. I guess I've just been through so much hell and back with people that I just no longer...