Blog Post 525
Head to Toe I Don't Remember You
Never gave a fuck about you or the shit you did. I just wanted to see what you were about, and turns out you were never really the one I could talk to. So I cut my ties and forgot about you. It wasn't anything that you did. I'm just to self centered and only focused on myself to give a damn about someone else and their life. I'm not trying to go out of my way and be a bother to others. So I sit back and avoid the drama, watching it all unfold but don't say a word because what's the point? Everyone always wants a reaction from me just to watch me walk out the door and go back to bed because what the fuck do I look like being entertained by some fuck shit that you did? It's so pointless and useless at this point. You're a whole grown man with a fucking kid, and you wanna go out of your way and get mad at me for something that was never even about you. It's like y'all are all the same, just in different fonts. I don't know how else to explain it.
Y'all do the same shit over and over just in a different style, I suppose. If you know, then you know what the fuck I'm saying, and if you still don't get it, then this really isn't meant for you. I don't see why I have to explain anything to you or why I even bother talking with you. Maybe you could just start ignoring me and acting as if I don't exist when you come around me? I don't know if that's possible for you or not, but if you could try to do it, that would be great; otherwise, it's just going to be awkward on your end, thinking you can go back to talking to me after I already killed you off in my head, to where your existence no longer exists or matters to me. So why would I bother wasting my time on someone who no longer exists?
It's really nothing personal to you or me. I just don't really wanna bother with you or the shit you do. We can be civil about everything else, but one-on-one talks are no longer something I wish to do with you. So just exist and don't do anything else around me. I really wish it didn't have to come to this, but it's honeslty for the best. You don't know me, and I don't bother asking about you. It's pretty simple if you ask me. It's just business, honestly. You don't have to say anything or explain your reasoning for the shit you do or did. I never gave a fuck about it anyway. It was chill while it lasted, but it's clear to me that I'll never fully have anyone close to me, and I'm okay with that. It's really not that deep, so don't think you gotta go out of your way and find me because I'm not hiding from you. I'll be where I know I belong; it's just that your presence will no longer be worth my time.
Sorry to be so harsh about it, but like I said, it's nothing personal; it's just business. You were just temporary personnel, and that's all you'll ever be to me, and by the looks of it, it looks like your time has come to end to be associated with me. So please save the pity and sorrow and just do what you do best and steer clear of my direction. Thanks. I don't even know what your purpose ever was to me, but it no longer matters to me. So do what you want with that information because that's all I have left to say to you. You can continue with the fake smiles and laughs, but it won't change the way I feel and think about you. It's nothing personal; I just figured you and I don't care to be associated with you. It's so funny how you waited this long to do it. I figured it would have been done within a few days, but nah, you chose to wait this long.
I'll give you credit for waiting this long, but honestly, you should've just done it the second after you did it, and I wouldn't have taken any offense to it. I probably would have just been like I knew it and left it at that. I didn't really know you'd wait, considering you're not the patient one. But anyway, I'm good, and I'm good off you. Like I said, nothing is going on between the two of us, and if you think there is, then that's on you. I'm just not going out of my way to ask or talk to you in any kind of way. It's not worth my time and energy. You can try talking with me, but it's honestly best if you don't because I'll just end up lying to you with a straight face and letting you wonder about the shit I just said while I don't think anything of it. It's really your loss and call on where you go from here with me because, for me, all access regarding you to me has been completely blocked off, and I don't plan on changing it. So by all means, just do what you're paid to do and don't bother coming my way!!