Blog Post 505
You Were Once My Favorite Memory
Even when the world spins around doing its dirty little dance around the universe, it’s you who brings me back to life, making me believe in something worth living for! I can do no wrong and say no wrong when all my answers lead back to you, even when I’m stuck in a dream looking for a way out! All the signs lead back to you as your soft touch reminds me of the memories we once shared! I can’t lie or hide when the thought of you becomes a part of me as if I owe you something in return, not knowing when I’ll get a chance to see you again! The distance is just a barrier that we gotta break through, knowing it’s nothing new to us when it’s been done once before, as if I haven’t been missing you this whole time! So tell me how it’s okay for me to live a life without you next to me, knowing that your love is all I crave!
You put all the love we once had on a shelf, making me wonder if that love will ever see the light again, trying to figure out if this pain is worth the wait or if I should just let the silence take over me and have it end the misery altogether?! Gotta know if you think of me when the city lights cut on, or do you go your separate way, knowing that the pain still exists, or do you go out of your way and look for me where you last left me?! I tend to replay every last goodbye as if it’s a never-ending cycle, knowing one day I’ll have to let go of us, but what happens when I do?! Will the thought of you remain, or will I lose sight of who I am without you next to me?! There's so many unanswered questions that there’s no room to think about what’s next if you’re not next to me!
I know some memories only bring back pain, but what’s the point of having to call me your forever when I’m the first to fall?! You’ve got my heart all torn up, making me feel like it’s all my fault, not knowing where it goes from here! How do you expect me to breathe when I’m alone without your heart to call my home?! Does it ever make you wonder what the truth was meant to be, or does my shadow take over, making you feel as if you’re on the dance floor dancing with someone you thought you once loved?! I’m lost in the void of hurt, trying to find my way back to you, only to realize there’s no turning back to when we first met, and that’s what’s hurting me the most! The price is too damn high that all my tears no longer shed when you call out to me!
You’re always going on about how time will heal, but so far all it’s done is hurt us in the process, making us drift further apart from one another as if holding on is still the answer! I close my eyes and see you standing in front of me as I’m running from the pain, crying on the floor! Looking for a sign to bring us back to life! But no matter how far I go, the lies keep holding me back as if I’m never going to escape the lies you once told me! I try my best to disguise the lies as the truth, but it turns out I’m just heading further from the truth! Got us crossing paths as strangers, not looking back to see if the spark was still intact. I guess the lies were better than the truth, even though it could have been all prevented if we had just talked it out! But the scars are already burned into our skin as a reminder of what could’ve been, and that’s just the way we gotta live!