Blog Post 468
I'm Giving Up On Trying to Make You Happy
Hey, don’t mind me, I’m just trying to get these feelings out before they consume me! I know you no longer mean anything to me, but at some point, you kind of meant something to me! I know I never really told you what it was you meant to me, but I’m sorta glad because it’s clear you never really cared about me. You really were just trying to be in my life so you could fuck, but since I kept pushing you out and stopping you from even getting a foot in the door, you clearly became agitated and decided to circle back and do some fuck shit once again!
It’s so weird to me how you operate when you could’ve just found someone else to fuck like I’ve been telling you to, so you could forget about me and just calm your nerves down, but nope, you ended up just getting all pissy and whatnot, making a scene knowing that drama shit ain’t really for my taste! So by all means, you do you, drama queen, and lose sight of me completely because I can’t keep doing this back and forth shit, are we fucking with one another or not! I have enough on my plate to deal with, and having you play mind games with me just ain’t on the list!
So how bout you go find someone else to play the part you need in your life and leave me be! You’re so predictable, it makes my stomach hurt! You’re like a drug addict looking for a high with everyone you come across, hoping it’ll last! You crave some weird attention from people, but when you came to me, you got annoyed and unpleasant with me because I didn’t give in to your doings and mind games! You acted as if I owed you something when I don’t owe you shit for anything! You’re not even on my radar of people to check up on, so what makes you think you were ever worth my time of getting next to me?!
I no longer exist in your world, and I think it’s for the best because you’re so indecisive when it comes to me, and honestly, I’d like it if you just left me last on your mind of people to reach out to because this back and forth shit is getting old! You say you don’t hate me, but then you go and give me mixed signals on the way you feel! Like, you do realize I pick up on every mood change that you have?! You make it so obvious that you’re incapable of talking and being around me, and it’s honestly so embarrassing for you! You wanna play the victim so damn bad, but honestly, I just see you being childish!
It’s so insane how people see you as whatever, but deep down inside, we both know you just have them wrapped around your fingers like a ring pulling them like strings as if they’re your puppets, and when they don’t act accordingly, you go out and bash them for having their own doings! Like you can’t be serious! I picked up on your doings so long ago that I just sat back and tested the theory out, and turns out I was right! So why the fuck would I choose to be a part of that when all I ever did was try to escape from the control of other people! So don’t bother coming my way, trying to control me when you couldn’t even handle me when I was at arm's reach the whole time! You’re so fucking stupid thinking you can control me when I don’t even have a soul or heart to give!