Blog Post 429
Just Forget About It
Honestly, I thought there was something more to you that I wanted to have, but turns out there's really nothing that I need from you. I guess the thought of you finally died down, and now I'm starting to regret my decision of reaching out and wondering what you've been up to. I should've known it would have been the same shit as before. I figured I'd give it a go and see where you'd end up taking it, and turns out my predictions were correct. Sucks that I have to step away from you now, even though the steps I took to get you weren't that far. Just a little bit of this and that, and you were already texting back like you owed me a favor. Kind of impressed by the fake attitude and persona that you chose to have when we both know that shit won't last. You only choose to do it so you can squeeze your way into my life, knowing you being in my life would only make you spiral out because behind closed doors, we both know you can't manipulate me when I'm the one pulling all the strings when it comes to you getting what you want from me.
You might think you have it all figured out but from the other side of the door it's me who's leading the way and you're falling for every trap I set and it's funny how you're not picking up on it because I'm doing the same shit you did once before only for me to act as if I didn't notice the shit you're doing. So I guess I'm the ring master and you're just an act of mine. It's crazy how you still think I need something from you when I already got everything I needed from you. At this point, it's just a game of pretending to like you just so I can watch you suffer up close and personal. There's just something about watching karma doing her thing that gives me a high I can't describe. So thank you for being the victim for once and letting me watch you fall from a throne you thought nobody could overthrow you from.
You wanted me to be this and that, only to forget I'm a mirror for other people, so whatever you do, I'll do it right back, and that's why I choose to avoid others and keep the little peace I have. I'm not out looking to get involved with someone else's weird and fucked up situations when my life has been a lesson ever since I was born. It's finally clicking to me what I need to do and how to do it. I'm self-aware about a lot of things, and sometimes I let shit slide, but at the end of the day, I'll keep note of it and figure out if it's worth mentioning or just going my own way and leaving them to wonder why I put distance between us.
It's never that deep or meaningful to me when I choose to walk away from others and their shitty doings, but clearly it's a big deal on the other side, and I can't understand why or how! You caused it, and I'm not in the mood to waste my time on something toxic for my health, so by all means, seek help and stop trying to bring shit up that has nothing to do with me. You wanna play fix it before it gets too out of hand, when in reality you should've just kept shit how it was and left it alone, and you wouldn't have to be seen as the bad guy. But no, you went and did some shit that you can't explain or have a reason for such acts and then come crying back to me when I won't hear you out, knowing all my friends are watching and waiting for you to get the fuck on. Some even ask who you are, and I tell 'em I don't know because the person you became was not the person I knew prior to meeting you. So honestly, it kind of makes sense as to why they'd ask that, because if I can't recognize you, how the hell are my friends supposed to know you?