Blog Post 423
I Just Need You
Sometimes I get lost, but then I look at you and know exactly where I am and what it is I need! You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me, even though we’re miles apart! But even with the distance, you still make me smile and laugh as if you and I were in the same room! It’s crazy how fast I fell for you when we first met, but I didn’t think too much of it! But somewhere down the line, you became the only person who makes sense to me!
Nothing ever made much sense to me til I started talking and being myself with you! I don’t know how to explain how much you mean to me! I just know if things go down the road, my friend wants me to take it’ll ruin what we have! I’m scared that I’ll lose my ability to be myself around you without the thought of you judging me! I feel like if I make the move, it’s gotta be right and not something just for laughs! It’s gotta make sense! I just hate the thought of making a mistake and losing you and everything I know when it comes to us!
I guess I should just chill and not get too ahead of myself because who am I to go after someone who’s just trying to live their life! I guess the thought of you and me is getting to me due to how well we collide together! I keep thinking about you and me, but then I think of how much it would hurt us in the end! So I just play it off and act as if it doesn’t bother me when in reality I think of you constantly, hoping you’re doing well and knowing I’ll be there every time you’re going through some shit!
I told my friend that I’m trying to hold back the protective side of me when it comes to you, but holy fuck, the way I feel is getting to the point where your safety is all I care about! You mean more to me than most people I come in contact with, and for some reason, you’ve been on my mind more than ever, and I’m not sure what it means, but every time I see you, I get butterflies! It’s crazy to think my feelings are coming back, all because I chose to let go of the past and focus on someone who actually sees me for me and doesn’t make me wanna hate myself for just existing!
You and I joke about the most random shit while everyone else just looks at us, wondering what’s wrong with us?! And honestly, I don’t mind! I love how crazy you and I can be without a care in the world! The smile you have lights up the darkest rooms, and I look at you like nobody’s around! It’s crazy how I can tell you anything and everything, and you just accept it! You’re the only one I see in a room full of faces, and it’s nice knowing that I don’t need anyone else to make me happy when everything I need is right in front of me! It’s so easy letting you know everything that’s going on, knowing I’ve never had anyone to talk to about the things that go on with me!