Blog Post 412

Coming to Terms with the Facts

It's crazy how it took me almost a year to see right through your bullshit and white lines of lies as you spoke to me with a soft tone. I just wish I had seen it sooner than later, as in now, because this whole time I thought we were good, but turns out you hated me from the jump, and I just wish I had known why. You made shit so simple, yet I was left confused as to what I did wrong to get the silent treatment and a no-call no-show. I guess it's my fault for putting my trust into someone who was only looking for one thing and one thing only when they claimed they wanted to just be friends, ohhhh how fucking silly of me!! Hahaha, Joke's on me!! Anyways fuck all that and all the lies you told trying to play me like I wasn't mirroring your actions right back at you.

It's like every time I thought of you, I would shed a tear thinking bout how things could have been different if I had just acted like this or that, and to be honest, I don't think any of the changes you could have given me step by step would have made any difference. You did what you wanted to do, and I did what you needed me to do and called it a night. I never begged or borrowed anything from you other than some time, and honestly, you can have all the time back to look back at the real me because the me that you're about to know is going to shock you to hell. So keep your nose clean and head held high because we both know you don't wanna overdose on some lines thinking shit would be sweet.

We never fought or went back and forth on shit other than just opening up about some minor trauma here and there, but damn you, thinking you know me based on the trauma I told you is fucking crazy. You ended up using my trauma against me, thinking I didn't already expect it, and for you to ask why I dissociated from you, knowing damn well why, is beyond me. Like, I'm glad you decided to leave me the fuck alone after you realized you couldn't manipulate me. Like it wasn't a full week and you were already on some bull shit!! Like what the actual fuck? And you had the nerve to ask me what my problem was?? Bitch I know you fucking lying!!! It's you who's got the problem!! Shit, I was just minding my business til your dumb ass got drunk, thinking shit would be sweet in the morning. Nah fuck you and go to hell!!