Blog Post 138

Sex with the Ex

I hope you understand that I'm not mad I'm just hella shocked that a friend of mine saw you liked your ex's Instagram photo he posted on the night of me walking away and you texting me asking if I'm okay? No, the fuck I'm not okay but it's cool because I no longer need to tell you how I'm doing knowing you already ran back to your ex like a lost pup. So that shit kinda messed me up in a way cause I feel like my predictions came true about you and your ex. You were still talking to him on the low and probably hiding his messages from me so I wouldn't see them but I'm not stressing because like I said I know the real you now and I just can't be around that fake shit. So I hope the decision you made was well worth it because I'm moving on and getting my life back together and not giving a fuck about us/what we once had or what you claimed we had. 

I just can't believe the moment I walked out you went ahead and started talking to him without even thinking about it. So it's clear I was right about you wanting your ex back. I just hope you have him back in your life again because I'll never be in your life ever again so I hope it was worth the trade knowing I never did you wrong or treated you the way he did for you to end up breaking things off. I just walked away because you were thinking about your ex. So it's not my fault for leaving if anything it's your fault for still making contact with him and I guess still thinking of him while you were with me. So yeah I guess in a way you cheated but in a different way than I've never experienced before.

I just can't believe I had to find all this shit out through a friend of mine. Do you know how fucked up that shit is finding out a friend of mine went out of there way to go on Instagram to see if they could find the ex you mentioned and actually found his account just to see they posted a pic on the same night as me walking out and you liking it? That shit is so fucked up on so many levels. But at least I know now and I'm not mad about it because like my friend said how they just gonna downgrade like that and just laughed. I don't know why I was laughing with him but I think it was just because he had a point and I didn't even really see a competition with your ex knowing I didn't see anything to be jealous of. I'm sorry but my friend has a point and I have to agree with him because that shit was too funny.

But I'm done with this chapter and with you for sure. I just can't believe a friend of mine went on his detective shit and found all this out and told me. That's a real friend right there something you'll never understand which is sad considering you push everyone out of your life unless it's your first ex. I'm just happy I can finally let all of this shit go and move on knowing I have nothing to be sorry about and can just be a ghost from the past to you now. So don't text me in a few months asking how things are or make any kind of contact with me because I'll be like who dis? or wrong number and block your new number if you got a new number considering I already have your current number blocked.

So do me a favor and don't bother with me because I'm doing much better now knowing you're back to being with your ex and back to feeling the same guilt and pain you were feeling before you met me. You're no longer my problem and I no longer need to overthink about everything I did with you and simply just erase all of it now starting with all the memories and then knowing you no longer exist which is always the fun part for me.