Blog Post 124

Just Stop

If you're still trying to harass the guy I exposed please just fucking stop. If you wanna harass someone harass me. Not him. He didn't do anything wrong. Please just leave him alone. I'm tired of thinking about all the pain I caused him when I know I shouldn't have done any of the things I did in the first place. So if it's anyone who should be getting all the hate it's me. I was just experimenting with my sexuality and took it too far and ruined a good thing with a cool person and for that, I can never let it go/forget about it. I just never saw it coming considering I was blinded by everything I was feeling for him and for that I'm sorry. 

So please just leave him alone. Don't text him/call him/facetime him if you got his number from me. I'm trying to move on but I'll never be able to do so if I know he's still getting harassed/called out for something he didn't do. It's my fault for putting him in this position which I never meant to put him in. If I knew people actually cared about me and would go after someone who I thought did me dirty I would've never done any of those things. I'm just so used people not giving a fuck about me or caring as to what I post so I thought that the post would've just been ignored/never acknowledged. But I was wrong and I feel so fucked up. I haven't eaten since he punched me which I didn't mind to be honest considering I deserved it/I wanted him to punch me. 

There's honestly nothing more I can say or do considering I'm done with this whole situation. I'd just really appreciate if everyone would stop harassing him and let him be himself without feeling judged or the need to feel guilty for something he didn't do. I'm going to be taking a break for maybe like 4-5 months just to get my life back together and just figure everything out on what I want in life/who I wanna engage with during sex and who I want to make out with because I clearly didn't mind it with a guy for the first time so like I don't know what else to tell you besides it felt normal. I don't know. I guess I'm just saying I liked being with him and I honestly didn't have any problems with it.

So anyways just stop with everything you're doing to him and instead just focus it on me and hate me for hooking up with a guy. I know this is weird for some of you who've known me for almost all your life but like times change and I wanted to just fucking experiment with my sexuality and life in general and if you have a problem with the experiment I did then please just hate me and tell me how fucked up I am because I'm so done with this feeling that I'm feeling.