Blog Post 123

Cut Ties

This pain you've given me is helping me think through everything in peace. I remember when I felt nothing and I didn't know what to say but now that you've given me something to feel so I can get back to my normal self. Anti-social and a loner. So for that, I thank you. I don't need you to explain anything to me considering I'm done with you and put everything we've been through behind me. I put all the feelings that I had for you behind me and moved on. I don't see the need to keep talking about you when I'll have nothing left to say after this post is up.

I just hope what you did to me was worth the outcome. I should've known better than to talk to you that day. I said I was scared of losing you but turns out I'm not and actually okay with the fact that I no longer have you in my life. If you really cared about someone you would've never resulted in violence and that shit right there just says a lot about you. So if we continued to talk It would've probably been an abusive/toxic waste of a relationship. Wish you understand that I'm no longer dealing with your violent shit and toxic habits. 

I already forgot your number which I thought would be impossible considering I had that shit memorized from front to back. So that's a relief that I'll never remember your number and have the urge to talk to you. You must've forgotten that I can easily replace people out of my life as if I have a signup sheet for people I wanna hang out with and people I don't want anything to do with. I no longer need to think about you considering you're about as relevant as a grain of sand. So you being on my mind is not even a thing with me. Maybe I'll be on yours for a while which I shouldn't be considering you said you hate me so why even bother having someone you hate on your mind. That's some stupid bullshit, because I hate you now and I don't even think of you/care to even look at you. So move the fuck on and get me out of your system/head. You'll never see me/I'll never care enough to reach out to you ever again and go through all of that pain again.

So do me a favor and everyone around me and just go fuck your gym trainer and all the other people you claim to be fucking with and leave me alone. I'm no longer speaking to you/acknowledging your existence/relevancy. I just hope karma takes it's toll on you and gives you HIV/STD/AIDS and everything else in that area. I know you like fucking raw and for what? You really need to low key catch something so you can learn not to fuck raw with strangers anymore. Out here in town fucking people raw not knowing what they have. You're a joke no wonder you own a damn clown mask.