Blog Post 122

Moving On

I will never be okay with the shit you did to me/had me feel. I can't believe I even tried reasoning with you. But like with most people it goes in one ear and out the other. Fuck why did I ever waste my time being/talking with you? You're so clueless as to how others feel after the mistakes they made/make. All you ever did was kept saying how I hurt you and I couldn't even say sorry about it because you kept denying all of my apologies so what else could I have said? I don't give a fuck? When clearly I did. I don't understand what else I could've said when sorry is all you can really say when trying to apologize. There aren't that many words that can resemble it but if you have another word I could've used/said to you then that would've been highly appreciated. I already used "I Fucked Up Bad I Know", "I Can't Take It Back Even Though I Wish I Could" I've used everything in the book when it came to this scenario but you kept saying I wasn't being apologetic. Like who the fuck do you think you are besides a bitch?

Fuck my friends and family were right about you. I should've never tried reasoning with you/gave you the time of day. I'm over here tearing myself apart trying to apologize to you and move on from all of this and you can't even acknowledge it? You're such a bitch. I wish I never did any of the things I did with you. Better yet I should've never added you on snap, gave you my number. You're such an airhead that everything you said was a lie it seemed and I can't believe I stayed and listened to every word you spoke. I don't even know if anything you said was real or if it was all because you wanted me to have sex with you. Like I just don't understand any of the shit you put me through. If the sex was all you cared about you should've just used your common sense and left me the fuck alone.

I will never beg for forgiveness from someone like you (a straight bitch ). Just as all my friends said you deserved all the hate I made you get and I'm starting to believe them. I really can't believe I actually lowered my standards all because I fell in love. That was the biggest mistake I regret making on my part out of this whole scenario. I'm starting to accept the fact that I actually enjoyed exposing your ass to the online world. Better yet I don't give a single fuck about you or any of the shit I did. If it was anyone who should've been hurting it was me but I'm no longer in pain so fuck it. I don't give a damn anymore about you or your fucking drama. I'm done trying to make it right by you. I tried so many fucking times and you didn't accept any of it so you have to live with that for the rest of your life while I go and live my best life not giving a single fuck about you.

Fuck I feel such at ease now. I don't know why I even bothered trying to do all the shit I did with you knowing I'd come out on top. Like, damn bitch. You gave me so many feelings to feel and hella shit to post on my blog site so thanks. Never knew I'd be able to talk about the shit you put me through so thanks for actually coming into my life. Wow so you basically used me for sex and I used you for blog post / exposed you to the online world. Lol, this is kind of iconic I feel like. I just love how life works sometimes.